One Little Piece

One Little Piece

Brittany L. McCann

9/27/2015

 

It starts out so small

You almost don’t even notice

The change is slight

Invisible on the outside

To pinpoint its cause

Is practically impossible

One day it hits you

There is something gone

But it’s only one little piece

Nothing big or major

An infinitesimal shard

Easy to replace

Will it ever come back?

Knowing not where it’s gone

A tiny morsel is all

The pain starts to shine

A pinpoint of dark

In a place meant for light

The can damage its whole

Merely because of the absence of

One little piece

Will it ever be mended?

This now missing piece

After all its size is miniscule

A microscope can barely glimpse it

And yet without its presence

This one little piece

Can eat away at the whole

Somehow I must find

This one little piece

That has gone missing

Just one little piece

Such a small little piece

Yet still a vital piece

This one little piece

This piece of my heart.

Because of You

Because of You

All because of you

Hearing your voice in the dark

No longer am I blue

You rekindled a spark

Deep within my

My pain is finally gone

My heart whispers softly

Singing it's joyful song

You're so close

Yet so far away

Wonder if he knows

How much I need him today

Alone here I sit

With you in my heart

Inside I'm throwing a fit

When we are a part

Slipping off my mask

Letting out my pain

What is it you ask

Love has reached me again

Your words amaze

Spoken from within

Away pass the days

Is loving you a sin

Somehow you found a way

To caress my soul

From the very first day

Having you was my goal

What do I need to do

To have you in my life

My love for you grows

Cutting my pain like a knife

*This is a poem that I wrote in 2002 and was published thanks to my Senior high school English teacher Miss Karnop who submitted it without my knowledge and bought me the book that it was published in for a graduation present.  I spent my entire Senior year thinking that I was a horrible student as English had always been my favorite subject and she had been so hard on me and always pushed me.  It wasn't until the end of the year when she finally told me the potential that she saw in me and helped give me inspiration in my writing when I felt that I couldn't make it.  I will never forget her, and was sad to see that she ended up moving after that year and getting married.  I wonder where she is now.

Never Meant To Be

Never Meant To Be
By: Brittany Lynne McCann
April 13, 2010

You and me
Were never meant to be
It was just an idea
That didn’t realize reality
Couldn’t grasp it’s own depth
From that second glance
We both fell into it
Eyes wide open
Hearts slammed shut
Somewhere along the way
Things happened right beneath our feet
Not as controllable
As you and I thought
Hearts leaping with joy
Yet still not feeling right
Everything was somehow wrong
The universe felt off
The deeper I fall
The more detached I seem to feel
The less it all seems real
I want to give my all
To someone willing to receive
From day one
There were no disillusions
I knew you were not the one
But I also knew I deserved some fun
My life had become so mundane
It threatened to drive me insane
Where do we go from here
I want my affections to go
To someone who wants them
You would rather feel nothing for me
To escape this contradictory
That drives us apart each day
And somehow closer still the next
Your company I crave
Yet wishing I cannot help
That in your place was someone else
Someone with open arms and heart
To appreciate and give in return
Someone deserving of me now
Not so far into the future
Someone who will not realize it once I’m gone
But who can realize it when it’s there
I do not want to lose you as a friend
Yet I feel it coming to an end
If we don’t act fast
It could end disastrous
Leaving us worse off than before
As our hearts hit the floor
Torn bare from our chests
In this battle of wills
While your touch still gives me chills
But your mind captivates
Not I moment I will regret
Many times I will never forget
How much longer can we masquerade
As we play at this charade
Of never letting go
Both stubborn as the bull
Which one of us will give in first
This time I feel the turn is mine
Allowing yourself to love would be divine
Yet I cannot continue to waste time
Waiting around for you to mature
I know what I deserve
Far more than you can give right now
Your friendship is irreplaceable
I will be sad to see you go
Yet I know we are meant to part ways
Already we have spent too many days
In this relationship contradictory
After all, you and me
We were never meant to be

*This is a very private poem that I did not share with very many people.  It was written in regards to the father of my son.  This was at the end of things between us and 2-3 months before I found out that I had been pregnant since March.....

I Want To

Here is a past poem that I would like to share, Enjoy:)

I Want To

By: Brittany L. McCann

9/12/10

I Want to Feel

His Breathe Upon My Neck

His Lips Upon My Skin

His Arms Wrapped Around Me

The Racing of His Heart

The Butterflies He Gives Me

With Merely A Smile

I Want To Hear

The Way He Says My Name

A Sigh Escape From His Lips

His Voice When He First Wakes Up

The Happiness in His Laughter

The Sound of His Heartbeat

With My Ear Pressed Against His Chest

I Want to See

His Eyes Sparkle With Excitement

His Smile Light Up His Face

His Heart Shine From Within

His Confidence in Life

The Tears He Hides From the World

And Let Him Know It’s Ok to Make Mistakes

I Want To Touch

His Lips With Mine

His Skin With My Fingertips

His Body With My Kisses

His Heart With My Love

His Soul From Deep Within

So He Never Has to Wonder If I’m The One

I Want To Know

His Deepest Desires

His Darkest Fears

His Secrets No One Knows

What Truly Makes Him Happy

His Dreams & Aspirations

So I Can Help Make Them Happen

I Want To Make Him Feel Safe

I Want Him To Know He Is Mine

I Want To Hold His Hand

I Want To Make New Memories

I Want To Be His Diary

I Want To Protect Him

I Want To Support Him

I Want To Push Him To Be Better

I Want To Catch Him When He Falls

I Want To Make Him Smile Every Day

I Want To Love Him With All That I Am

But Most Of All

I Want To Begin Sharing My Life With Him

*I wrote this poem a few months after finding out that I was going to be a mother, and my emotions were at an all time high.  My heart was open more than it had ever been.  I was in a wonderful place in my life to allow love to enter.  I wanted to share all of the amazing experiences I was going through with someone.